I had a weird experience in my dreams last night. I wouldn't call it a spiritual experience (and certainly not a religious experience) because I amn't permanently changed by it or anything but it was thought provoking.
I was dead and being a ghost in this upper realm type thing, and any time you're tired of being a ghost you can go upstairs and move on to the next world.
You know how when you're asleep your dreams can trigger off emotions the same way as life does?
Fear, Happiness, Sadness, Love... the full spectrum...
Well, when I finally went upstairs there was this bright light shining through the clouds and in a few seconds I was drifting towards it I felt TOTAL divinity run through my entire body, it was so euphoric and the closer I got the stronger it got like a light shining brighter, spreading through my entire body. All in about 3 seconds I was touching the Realm of the Lord.
As I was drifting (same 3 seconds) I looked down through the clouds at the world and I wondered what would happen if I went there instead of into the light and if I tried to see what it was like would I get another chance to go up later...
...I started falling, falling to the ground, through the ground and into the fiery pit, just for a second, then I woke up staring at the wall, I felt like Satan was behind me.
You know the expression "Get ye behind me Satan?"
I'd say it's the last place you want him to be, you can't see what mischief he's getting up to and you'll be too scared to look behind you and check.
Keep him where you can see him.
I have never been a believer in religion, and certainly not heaven or hell, however Steve, my band mate, likes the symbolism of Jesus as a saviour and Satan as he who tempts us to stray from a richeous path. I think my dream was merely symbolic, but I'd give anything to touch the realm of the Lord once again.
Thursday 2 December 2004
Sunday 19 September 2004
The Postmaster
A lot of my email keep bouncing, I get this postmaster-delivery-error type message. Sometimes I wonder who the “postmaster” is and where the emails are coming from.
I like to think he is this big king that sits on a throne of paper machete letters on a hill of envelopes. His robe is lined with first class stamps and his golden scepter has “postmaster” engraved on the top. He lives in cyberspace and looks at everyone’s email, except the ones say “enlarge your penis,” he’s tired of looking at those ones.
Oh postmaster where art thou?
I like to think he is this big king that sits on a throne of paper machete letters on a hill of envelopes. His robe is lined with first class stamps and his golden scepter has “postmaster” engraved on the top. He lives in cyberspace and looks at everyone’s email, except the ones say “enlarge your penis,” he’s tired of looking at those ones.
Oh postmaster where art thou?
Tuesday 7 September 2004
Does Love Exist?
This is something I have been pondering particularly over the last couple of moths, but certainly for at least a year.
Of course I mean the concept of being “in love,” not the attachment for friends and family, the bond and love for their individuality and sheer being.
Is being “in love” something unique or just the right combination of lust, friendship, thinking a personality is beautiful and enjoying the time spent with them?
Are these two descriptions one and the same?
I know that in the past I’ve believed I was in love, I’ve had butterflies in my stomach just thinking of someone, but these feelings would fade over time (be it months or years) and I haven’t had butterflies for about four. Still though, this doesn’t negate the fact that those feelings actually existed. I certainly would have gone to the ends of the world for these people, but would I not do the same for those I feel the “other” kind of love?
I always consider that I am desensitized to these emotions, much like other things, and I have reasons to think this true.
If you say “I don’t believe in love” to the wrong people the will take in unkindly. “But I AM in love!” their minds will moan and they’ll make it their mission to convince you with their experiences of pain and sacrifice or unequivocal joy.
Could they be trying to justify their lust, or are they merely hurt at the thought that someone could think that all their strong emotions tied to a person are nothing but that, strong emotions.
I certainly don’t believe in the concept that there is a special person destined for everyone and love is forever, otherwise we’d all be in perfect relationships.
A married friend recently told me she thinks when you love someone it’s only in the beginning, the you just become accustomed to being with them. My hope is that one day I meet someone magical, and after the spark runs out she will be like my best friend with benefits, perhaps my wife and even the mother of my kids.
In fact, further down the line I would actually consider marrying some of my friends... watch out.
“If love is only a feeling, why are you crying then?” – Justin Hawkins
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Also see: Love Is Selfish
Of course I mean the concept of being “in love,” not the attachment for friends and family, the bond and love for their individuality and sheer being.
Is being “in love” something unique or just the right combination of lust, friendship, thinking a personality is beautiful and enjoying the time spent with them?
Are these two descriptions one and the same?
I know that in the past I’ve believed I was in love, I’ve had butterflies in my stomach just thinking of someone, but these feelings would fade over time (be it months or years) and I haven’t had butterflies for about four. Still though, this doesn’t negate the fact that those feelings actually existed. I certainly would have gone to the ends of the world for these people, but would I not do the same for those I feel the “other” kind of love?
I always consider that I am desensitized to these emotions, much like other things, and I have reasons to think this true.
If you say “I don’t believe in love” to the wrong people the will take in unkindly. “But I AM in love!” their minds will moan and they’ll make it their mission to convince you with their experiences of pain and sacrifice or unequivocal joy.
Could they be trying to justify their lust, or are they merely hurt at the thought that someone could think that all their strong emotions tied to a person are nothing but that, strong emotions.
I certainly don’t believe in the concept that there is a special person destined for everyone and love is forever, otherwise we’d all be in perfect relationships.
A married friend recently told me she thinks when you love someone it’s only in the beginning, the you just become accustomed to being with them. My hope is that one day I meet someone magical, and after the spark runs out she will be like my best friend with benefits, perhaps my wife and even the mother of my kids.
In fact, further down the line I would actually consider marrying some of my friends... watch out.
“If love is only a feeling, why are you crying then?” – Justin Hawkins
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Also see: Love Is Selfish
Sunday 5 September 2004
The Game of Life
Life is a funny old game,
It's like,
This person wants to spend their life with this person
And this person wants to spend their life with this person
And this person is sad coz they want to spend their life with that person
And some people spend their life wondering when they're going to be spending their life with a person when they're already spending their life wondering and maybe they should just make the best of the time they are spending
It's like,
This person wants to spend their life with this person
And this person wants to spend their life with this person
And this person is sad coz they want to spend their life with that person
And some people spend their life wondering when they're going to be spending their life with a person when they're already spending their life wondering and maybe they should just make the best of the time they are spending
Thursday 29 July 2004
July 2004 funny(ish) stuff
Fashion is something so ugly it has to be changed every 15 minutes
Funny quotes of the day:
"It's funny, if I went up to most girls and said 'I'd like to have sex with you' they'd slap me, but you think it's sweet"
IDiedAtLakeBodom: im a very nice person!
IDiedAtLakeBodom: a very nice person who happens to like licking nipples!
IDiedAtLakeBodom: awwww
IDiedAtLakeBodom: you hate me
IDiedAtLakeBodom: and my nipples
IDiedAtLakeBodom: and my nipple licking habbits
IDiedAtLakeBodom: im trying to recruit a viking hoarde to take over the universe and lick peoples nipples, wanna join?
IDiedAtLakeBodom: i withdraw my offer of mutual nipple licking
Ultimate Geek Fantasy: Girl in a Star Fleet uniform
phew! only I could have thought of that! I'm such a character!
IDiedAtLakeBodom: you are no longer in my clan of space monguls
xxxxxxxxxxxxx: ur banished from donkey cult
IDiedAtLakeBodom: no way! You can't banish me!
xxxxxxxxxxxxx: lol yes i can
IDiedAtLakeBodom: fine then, I'll form my own donkey cult
xxxxxxxxxxxxx: dont u DARE
IDiedAtLakeBodom: I am, I've done it already
xxxxxxxxxxxxx: doom on u, doom on u
IDiedAtLakeBodom: see, "As of this moment, I declare open the Antony Donkey Cult of Nipple Lickery, Starfleet Uniforms and Space Monguls"
xxxxxxxxxxxxx: NOOOOOOOOOO
don't worry, you're still in my crew of swashbuckling pirates
we're going to sail to the moon!
we will politely sip tea with the martianarians
viking shmiking: A viking dismissed from the conversation
"It's funny, if I went up to most girls and said 'I'd like to have sex with you' they'd slap me, but you think it's sweet"
IDiedAtLakeBodom: im a very nice person!
IDiedAtLakeBodom: a very nice person who happens to like licking nipples!
IDiedAtLakeBodom: awwww
IDiedAtLakeBodom: you hate me
IDiedAtLakeBodom: and my nipples
IDiedAtLakeBodom: and my nipple licking habbits
IDiedAtLakeBodom: im trying to recruit a viking hoarde to take over the universe and lick peoples nipples, wanna join?
IDiedAtLakeBodom: i withdraw my offer of mutual nipple licking
Ultimate Geek Fantasy: Girl in a Star Fleet uniform
phew! only I could have thought of that! I'm such a character!
IDiedAtLakeBodom: you are no longer in my clan of space monguls
xxxxxxxxxxxxx: ur banished from donkey cult
IDiedAtLakeBodom: no way! You can't banish me!
xxxxxxxxxxxxx: lol yes i can
IDiedAtLakeBodom: fine then, I'll form my own donkey cult
xxxxxxxxxxxxx: dont u DARE
IDiedAtLakeBodom: I am, I've done it already
xxxxxxxxxxxxx: doom on u, doom on u
IDiedAtLakeBodom: see, "As of this moment, I declare open the Antony Donkey Cult of Nipple Lickery, Starfleet Uniforms and Space Monguls"
xxxxxxxxxxxxx: NOOOOOOOOOO
don't worry, you're still in my crew of swashbuckling pirates
we're going to sail to the moon!
we will politely sip tea with the martianarians
viking shmiking: A viking dismissed from the conversation
what quirks? list, and the describe in detail my quirks...
Space: The Final Frontier
Today I am wondering what is in the centre of our galaxy, is it some kind of super omega star that all the other starts orbit around?
The other thing I've been wondering is how far away the next closest galaxy is and thats why I have to form a star fleet of intergalactic monkey catchers, the plan is as follows:
Phase 1 -
Invent a way of travelling through space really really fast
Phase 2 -
Build a vehicle capable of long distance space travel
Phase 3 -
Produce a really long measuring tape
Phase 4 -
Use all above technologies to measure the distance from the edge and centre of our galaxy to that of our closest neibour.
Phase 5 -
Catch any monkeys that got loose in the process
I estimate this plan will take 6 or 7 years to complete, but the information aquired will be worth that wait.
16.35:
haven't you read my journal?
it's actually reached peak levels of nonsensical hilarity!
The other thing I've been wondering is how far away the next closest galaxy is and thats why I have to form a star fleet of intergalactic monkey catchers, the plan is as follows:
Phase 1 -
Invent a way of travelling through space really really fast
Phase 2 -
Build a vehicle capable of long distance space travel
Phase 3 -
Produce a really long measuring tape
Phase 4 -
Use all above technologies to measure the distance from the edge and centre of our galaxy to that of our closest neibour.
Phase 5 -
Catch any monkeys that got loose in the process
I estimate this plan will take 6 or 7 years to complete, but the information aquired will be worth that wait.
16.35:
haven't you read my journal?
it's actually reached peak levels of nonsensical hilarity!
to break hearts
IDiedAtLakeBodom: the reason i had to go was because I was at work
xxxxxxxxxxxxx: and what´s ur job? to break hearts?
xxxxxxxxxxxxx: and what´s ur job? to break hearts?
Sunday 25 July 2004
Sunday 18 July 2004
Antelope
July 14th 2004
I Run Wild With The Antelope!
I think antelope are cool coz they have kind of trees sticking out their head,
and they use them to fend off other antelope. One day all antelope will live in unison...
haaaa actually they will sing in unison, they will live in unity, because I don't think it's actually
possible to live in unison. It may or may not be possible for antelope to sing, if it is indeed
possible then perhaps they will be able to sing in unison, but I suspect not.
More research forthcoming.
July 18th 2004
The Antelope Have Failed Me!
I was very dismayed to discover that Antelope... don't actually have antlers
Unfortunately the have big horns, which... although they're pretty cool,
are not (as I have said): "kind of trees sticking out their head"
Picture fourthcoming.
I am saddened.
I Run Wild With The Antelope!
I think antelope are cool coz they have kind of trees sticking out their head,
and they use them to fend off other antelope. One day all antelope will live in unison...
haaaa actually they will sing in unison, they will live in unity, because I don't think it's actually
possible to live in unison. It may or may not be possible for antelope to sing, if it is indeed
possible then perhaps they will be able to sing in unison, but I suspect not.
More research forthcoming.
July 18th 2004
The Antelope Have Failed Me!
I was very dismayed to discover that Antelope... don't actually have antlers
Unfortunately the have big horns, which... although they're pretty cool,
are not (as I have said): "kind of trees sticking out their head"
Picture fourthcoming.
I am saddened.
December 27th 2015
Monday 22 March 2004
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